Where do I fit in my Story?

If my life could be filmed, it would be a pretty random, funny, overwhelming chaos…

I am not sure how many times I have to continue to tell myself to tune out those negative thoughts that try to put me down. When times get hard, I feel like there is a hurricane in my brain trying to destroy whatever good I have left.

I have been stressing for some time, I was at a point that starting my shift at work was tough, I had to put on a acted smile, acted conversations with clients and once I was done with them, a long loud sigh of hopelessness would follow, and I continued like this for months, on and off.

I searched in our old books as I knew we have a stress workbook from work, which should help you in those times….so I opened the book and guess what? It was filled front and back with so much information, I tried to start from the beginning.

After the first couple of pages, I was getting anxious, the words on the pages started to look baffling, it was making me more stressed so I closed it quickly and threw it on the floor.

At that point, I realized my bible was just sitting there close to me, and I opened it, and I do have a lot of highlighted verses in there, and the one that popped up was:

“Strengthen those who have tired hands, and encourage those who have weak knees. Say to those with fearful hearts, ‘Be strong, and do not fear, for your God is coming to destroy your enemies. He is coming to save you'”

Isaiah 35:3

If you continue to read this verse, it just goes on and on about all the good things God will do and finishes with: “Sorrow and mourning will disappear, and they/me/you will be filled with joy and gladness.”

A feeling of hopefulness took over me as soon as I read it, and something said to me:

you see, this book should be your source of comfort; not a stress related book, nor co-workers, friends, family, therapist… can give you relief of your heaviest burdens, but…

Your father who created you, can…your creator that knows every inch of you, can!

you just have to leave it all to him.

So I loaded up on verses, songs and prayer…and although funny enough, bad times where trying to dig me a bigger hole of misery, and it did not feel as though anything was getting better, the difference now was, that I had picked up my tools/weapons, and I was ready to fight back, instead of the enemy trying to push me in that hole,

now I was equipped and with my father on my side, unbeatable.

We all go through those kinds of feelings at some point, and as hard as it is, we need to equip ourselves with the “right” tools,  and stand up to our enemy.

~

I fell into this new song by Lauren Daigle and I must say the Lyrics whipped me up some good positiveness. This song is a beautiful reminder of how God, even when we feel at our lowest, or even when people judge us in our season of lowness (is that a word?), well God does not reject us, I hope you can read this out there, anyone that feels they cannot amount, they are not good enough, I just want to remind you, please engrave it in your heart, that you are loved, even if you feel you don’t fit in as the hero of your story.

🙂

 


Lauren Daigle – You Say

Lyrics

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe
The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
And You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh, I believe
Taking all I have and now I’m laying it at Your feet
You have every failure God, and You’ll have every victory, (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe
Oh I believe (I), yes I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh I believe (oh)
Songwriters: Paul Mabury / Lauren Daigle / Jason Ingram
You Say lyrics © Capitol Christian Music Group
Released: 2018
Genre: Christian/Gospel
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